Friday, September 07, 2007
Corrinne May
On the side of me
I’m not the easiest person to love
I’m often the one who lets things go unresolved
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Yet you choose to be on the side of me
on the side of me
I’m not too proud of some things
I’ve done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Blessed Charity
You’re on the side of me
on the side of me
Everyone needs a friend to hold
when it’s cold outside
and there’s no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
but you
I’m not the easiest person to love
But you, you’ve opened your heart to show me what I’m worth
‘Cause you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
What a mystery
You’re on the side of me
on the side of me
Everyone needs a friend to hold
when it’s cold outside
and there’s no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you…
Yeah you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
ya, as amazing as it sounds. i need a job. ive just sent in my resume(not that it has alot) for this firm. haha. (:
maybe good news would come. but i do wonder if all this is just shortlive.
ps: i'm craving for chocolate fudge.
Thursday, September 06, 2007
i'm finding solace in my room right now. i can tell you i'm suffering from an emotional upwreak. it is drawn to me that i have been pms-ing my week through. the thought of this irks me. what they have done to my brain, bringing a surge of emotional downpour. i think i have been kicking a big fuss. damn, this is sick. why do i have to suffer from this. yea, poor inner strength, bullshit.
i'm a fantatic of emotions right now, yea yea, what can i say? i'm appreciating time alone, facing this four walls of my rooms, looking through the windows , admiring the serenity surrounding. It's always nice being left alone, it gives you sufficient time to think, i hope. ok, maybe not, but i'm trying to.
life is such a drama. i never knew i would say this, but ya, holding a baggage full of insercurities, you will never figure out that i'm actually am dependent. Gosh, i thought to say i was independent. now where the i-n? where ever it went, its hiding away.
shit, now the complete silence in my room is really deafening. so whats with that emotional roller coaster. i need some fresh air, i need some greeneries. brush my fears away. maybe i shall find a dome and hide.
anyway, whats with plans, when i'm always ditching it.
I knew it and I saw it coming all along. I did what my sane-est mind told me to do, but yet as stubborn as I can get, I held on tightly, hoping maybe soon, any minute. It was past the usual, I gave some excuse. I turn on the radio to keep myself company. Muttons were on air, but you see, I couldn’t laugh. I lay in bed staring straight into the clock, holding on to the slightest hope.
This time I know never to expect, I knew I would be sad. Its not the first time, never would it be the last I presume. I know I’m right for sure. Oh, of course, it’s so predictable. Why did I bother in the first place? it can happen in the morning, it too can happen now.
You see, it was never anger at all. instead they were all disappointments. Maybe you would never know how it feels.
I wouldn’t bother explaining why, I never would. I don’t see a point in me uttering every single point. You got to find it out yourself.
now i sense those tears coming.
its not meant for you to feel binded. neither for me.
well, i've whine enough. done.
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
i do feel inferior, god damn it!
shemeshemesheme??
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
hiatus i have been, but who cares, i'm pretty much loving it.
its all about patience afterall.
its all about accommodating.
but you know, real soon, i know i wont be this cool about it anymore.
